{"id":1089,"date":"2018-05-18T12:14:53","date_gmt":"2018-05-18T10:14:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/neuralgia-blog.pl\/?p=1089"},"modified":"2018-05-18T12:14:53","modified_gmt":"2018-05-18T10:14:53","slug":"sama","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/2018\/05\/18\/sama\/","title":{"rendered":"Sama."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Najbli\u017csi\u2026 Zbyszek. Rodzice. To ta tr\u00f3jka najcz\u0119\u015bciej interesuje si\u0119\u00a0moim stanem a jednak i w ich podej\u015bciu du\u017co si\u0119\u00a0zmieni\u0142o. Nie dziwi\u0119 si\u0119, bo przecie\u017c ile mo\u017cna przejmowa\u0107\u00a0si\u0119\u00a0czym\u015b, co si\u0119\u00a0nie zmienia a je\u015bli ju\u017c si\u0119\u00a0zmienia to w odwrotnym kierunku od zamierzonego? Ile czasu\u2026?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Pami\u0119tam, kiedy po raz pierwszy pojawi\u0142y si\u0119\u00a0symptomy b\u00f3lowe i Zbyszek <em>\u201eskaka\u0142\u201d<\/em> wok\u00f3\u0142 mnie jak op\u0119tany. Dzisiaj bywa tak, \u017ce nie pyta o nic. M\u00f3wi, \u017ce wie wszystko, bo zna ju\u017c m\u00f3j wyraz twarzy, poziom zm\u0119czenia oczu\u2026 Ja to rozumiem, na logik\u0119, ale w tej chorobie, po latach, zaczyna brakowa\u0107 mi empatii, pomocy emocjonalnej. Bo On mo\u017ce oddzieli\u0107 si\u0119\u00a0od tego wszystkiego, ja nie mog\u0119. Codziennie \u017cyj\u0119\u00a0z wi\u0119kszym lub mniejszym cierpieniem. Ja nie mog\u0119\u00a0przyzwyczai\u0107\u00a0si\u0119\u00a0do b\u00f3lu, uzna\u0107, \u017ce go znam i przesta\u0107\u00a0o nim my\u015ble\u0107.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0Tylko czy mog\u0119 mie\u0107 o to pretensje? Nie&#8230;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Nie \u017cycz\u0119 mu, \u017ceby tkwi\u0142 w tym ze mn\u0105 bez przerwy. Nawet bardzo bym tego nie chcia\u0142a, ale\u2026 brakuje mi czego\u015b. Czuj\u0119\u00a0jakbym zosta\u0142a sama z t\u0105 chorob\u0105.<\/p>\n<p>Dzisiaj rano przywita\u0142\u00a0i przytuli\u0142 si\u0119\u00a0do mnie jeden z kotk\u00f3w. Nikt inny. On jest jeszcze zainteresowany tym czy wstan\u0119, czy b\u0119d\u0119 \u017cy\u0107\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Najbli\u017csi\u2026 Zbyszek. Rodzice. To ta tr\u00f3jka najcz\u0119\u015bciej interesuje si\u0119\u00a0moim stanem a jednak i w ich podej\u015bciu du\u017co si\u0119\u00a0zmieni\u0142o. Nie dziwi\u0119 si\u0119, bo przecie\u017c ile mo\u017cna przejmowa\u0107\u00a0si\u0119\u00a0czym\u015b, co si\u0119\u00a0nie zmienia a je\u015bli ju\u017c si\u0119\u00a0zmienia to w odwrotnym kierunku od zamierzonego? Ile czasu\u2026?\u00a0 Pami\u0119tam, kiedy po raz pierwszy pojawi\u0142y si\u0119\u00a0symptomy b\u00f3lowe i Zbyszek \u201eskaka\u0142\u201d wok\u00f3\u0142 mnie jak&hellip;<a href=\"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/2018\/05\/18\/sama\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Sama.<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1090,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[62,59,60],"tags":[9,55],"class_list":["post-1089","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-bol","category-tn","category-priv","tag-bol","tag-samotnosc"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1089","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1089"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1089\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1094,"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1089\/revisions\/1094"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1090"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1089"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1089"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuralgia-blog.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1089"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}